R A N D O M

Joyeux Saint Valentin

2012-02-14T05:39:00.000-08:00

I would like to present a song #foreveralone TROLOLOLOL

I tried so hard my dear to show that you're my every dream.

Yet you're afraid each thing I do is just some evil scheme
A memory from your lonesome past keeps us so far apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind and melt your cold cold heart

Another love before my time made your heart sad and blue
And so my heart is paying now for things I didn't do
In anger unkind words are spoke that make the teardrops start

Why can't I free your doubtful mind,and melt your cold cold heart

You'll never know how much it hurts to see you sit and cry
You know you need and want my love yet you're afraid to try

Why do you run and hide from life,to try it just ain't smart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind and melt your cold cold heart

There was a time when I believed that you belonged to me
But now I know your heart is shackled to a memory
The more I learn to care for you,the more we drift apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind and melt your cold cold heart

sleepy head

2012-01-30T09:04:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year 2012

About to close my eyes. Internet connection sucks tonight.

Look-like-a-vogue

2012-01-03T05:37:00.000-08:00

It's a wrap! Finished with those editorial photos without storyline. Thanks to my super team. All of them worked hard today. Huge thanks to both models, Jesslyn and Ivyreen.

Second day

2012-01-02T01:19:00.000-08:00

Second day of 2012. Downloading MBC Gayo Daejun 2011. Couldn't wait to see the full part of it. Khuntoria is the best!! ;)

Reflection and another Resolution

2011-12-30T20:42:00.000-08:00

First of all, I would like to thank God for what have happened in these 365 days. I experienced up-and-down emotion for the full year. Sometimes everything seems good but sometimes it's a vice versa. I did fell for someone through this year, I'm being honest. But seems it didn't make any good sense so I decided to say good-bye and close that page. I enjoyed my first alone-trip and a breath-taking birthday surprise that I will never forget. Overall, 2011 is an incredible year.

I believe 2012 is going to be a better year :)

Atmosphere of the end of 2011

2011-12-28T22:33:00.000-08:00

The atmosphere of new year is getting thicker. everyone seems can't wait to celebrate this huge occasion. Trumpet sounds, decorations, fireworks, plan for parties, OMG! I can't wait to celebrate it either!!!! :D

2011-12-25T00:11:00.000-08:00

merry holly joyful christmas, world <3

spending all day long with movies, songs and zipping the cyber. couldn't love more! yeay.

Free Like a Bird

2011-12-22T04:49:00.000-08:00

The last day of mid-term today. Went for busy weeks and hectic days. Finally could breathe well. So I spent some fun with my girls today, went to Seoul Garden and Karaoke. We yelled loudly as we let our burdens out from chest. I worked out hard after arrived home, feel guilty after ate that much :( LOL

merry holly x'mas, dudes! enjoy the superb year-end holidays ;)

a little white lie

2011-11-13T05:46:00.000-08:00

I realize how big my dream is. I realize how amazing my life is. If you ask me which part of my life would I like to change then I would answer you "none of it". one last word, move on, girl. you deserve better.

over the rainbow

2011-11-11T22:19:00.000-08:00

again, reality hit me for once. i was shocked. i was fell. i am broken! expectation is still a piece of dream. i swear to move on. i know it was my fault, i know i probably can't. im such a failure.. such one of a huge loser. i hate myself for this.

before writing this, I back forwards to my past. i understand how stupid to stay in past but past is a good place to visit. i was like broken few months ago, i woke up, i did but then today, i fall in the same deep hole. hello, girl, you are a moron!

Rise and Shine, baby!

2011-11-08T06:03:00.000-08:00

Physically tired :( we are preparing for teacher's day event at our school. so many things need to be done. somehow, I need to borrow my classmate's notebooks to write what did teacher taught in class. Lack of sleep. Sleepover at granparents' because grandpop is currently out of town. wake earlier than usual to make sure that I'm not late to school.

finger crossed for myself.

Being down-to-earth is it called as NO CLASS?

2011-10-02T02:14:00.000-07:00

I was sent an email by ms. Erica -- she sent a lot to me today -- one of it is about the President of USA, Mr. Barrack Obama. In the email, it was given so many pictures those showing Obama is being disrespectful, putting his feet up on the table and some comments from netizens about it. Another story I heard from my grandmom is, our First Lady, Mrs. Obama, went to a wholesalers that is providing SALE. Public commented as NO CLASS. Well, I need some explanations about those things. I know it's impolite when you are talking with others and your feet was on the table at least in some photos, it shows that he's enjoying his spare time or watching TV -- I consider they manipulated it too -- and about the First Lady went for bargain shopping, still called as NO CLASS? Everyone would enjoy cheap things with high value. It's quite unfair when you judge those just because they show this kind of manners. I consider they are being down-to-earth, they try to live as public are. They are not showing off by buying some pieces of branded or sitting properly when they don't feel ease at all. What the point of being a leader but it's not on your way? You never make changes with it. Or.. do you prefer a high class leader that never feel what the citizens are feeling? They would probably enjoy the first class life, wouldn't they?

Summing up those above, I would like to remind you with a quote that is common enough in your mind, "Don't judge a book by its cover"

Somehow I Smile :)

2011-09-12T08:23:00.000-07:00

Time is the best heal and friends are the best place

Don't Miss Any Single Thing About Me Tonight

2011-09-04T06:17:00.000-07:00

School starts tomorrow at 7.30. One week is seriously not enough for me. Well, I spent this week waking up early for appointments or family gathering. I even spent some time with DVDs, yah.. my favourite things to do while on holidays. Just finished two movies in week, slept at dawn because enjoying them all. I say, it worth for me.

Well said, I'm in K-addiction. I would easily memorize all those Korean stars and words but not good in memorizing school subjects. Mom always yells at me for this uh-oh

Ups. need to take a bath. see ya :)

ANNYONGHASEYO

2011-07-31T05:49:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not posting this few weeks. After came back from Lasalle, I'm just so busy. Driven in the hectic days with those troubles. Sigh.. I just need some more time to think clearly.

Hey, see, I think people are more dedicated to their egoism. I'm stupid enough to take everything easy when people don't. I thought I could play more with life, not taking it as risk. Still.. sounds different to others' ears. Friends are not forever holding on your friendship.

YOU AFRAID OF IT

2011-06-30T21:17:00.000-07:00

I answered a daily question from www.formspring.me about what the scariest thing in the whole life. Then I decided to have a short answer and make this as my post's topic. Enjoy.

What the scariest thing in my life hasn't happened yet but I hope it's not going to happen next. Simply, it is when I know that I have no tomorrow. Everyone will suddenly leave this earth one day. I know it as it will happen to me too one day but yes, here's I write "I know that I have no tomorrow" means I know that I couldn't leave for more than a day. Couldn't see the sun shines, couldn't watch our beloveds. Just so scared about it.. :(

Well, few hours more for the departure. and.. I HAVEN'T FINISHED PACKING UP THINGS! BYE XXX

DREAMER

2011-06-27T06:06:00.000-07:00

a quote that picked from one of my favourite songs that fits me now. i never understand you while you always ask for an understanding. Do you think it is fair enough?

"I was a dreamer before you left and let me down"

You gotta it! ;)

2011-06-25T08:20:00.000-07:00

So, today was the last workshop of SEALNet and probably tomorrow will be the Carnival day. Wish to join it as much but too bad have something important to do as I'm going to leave town this Friday for a workshop in Singapore. SEALNet brings so much fun to me these days and I'm going to miss all those moments for sure. How we played games, laughs and cried when we went to the orphanage. We had a ninja chop's game today as ice-breaker and we also discussed plus we need to presentation in front of others about what-we-are-going-to-do-for-next-sealnet-project. So, been such a lovely day today, I learn so much from SEALNet. I was so shy to talk in front firstly and now I'm going to be used to it! Really going to miss this....... :(

LUCKIER

2011-06-23T20:39:00.000-07:00

I went to an orphanage with others SEALNet members. we're all blending up with those orphans and we had some fun. We learnt so much yesterday. We are very lucky that we still have air-con when we're sleeping while they don't even have a fan.It's very hot there, no lights and come up with so many mosquitoes when it's about 5 o'clock. I was in the eldest group and help mentors to motivated them. We asked them to draw a life graphic from when they born till now. They all have a very touching story and all the girls cried, our President too. Not all of them have no families, they still have but their parents left them, asked them to study in medan but has no news at all.

One of the kid, Vallen or Jepa, I forget which is his name, told me that I look like her sister,"kakak mirip sama kakak aku.." I wish to ask him where's his sister but I canceled. He even hugged me.

We played so many games and I lost once. I got a punishment that I need to dance and sing. They seems like very happy too cause they asked when will we come and visit them again, "kakak kakak sama abang abang kapan datang lagi setelah minggu?" oh.. I cherish my life even more!

ah~

I'm wishing someone on his birthday too early but he's leaving town for vacation. He didn't picked up my phone at the first as I was like to sing in Korean but after he picked up the phone, the connection went bad. Fed up at first and I sent some texts *it was so long* wishing him a very-birthday.

"Thinking of you with love on your birthday and wishing you everything that brings you happiness today and always."

LEADER MUST BE AN OPEN-MINDED

2011-06-18T09:19:00.000-07:00

i went to SEALNet's workshop today. Frankly, it's hard for me to wake up and move on from bed as I'm having holidays and always wake up late. I kept sneezing the alarm untill it was 7 something. The workshop was a real FUN! I was so shy but I'm so excited about this program. We had games, discussion, and many more. I learnt so many things about life and I cherish my life more. After the workshop, I went for a competition. I'm not the winner but I'm proud to have some amazing shoots. So, I'm so damn tired now. Need to take a rest for my eyes cause tomorrow is going to be more awesome!

SLOW-SPEED

2011-06-14T23:15:00.000-07:00

back to daily-life of holidays. I'm so screwed this morning. Found anything that made me on the nerves. Telling you, sorry that I can't upload any pictures of my a-week-vacation cause I left my memory card with aunt in Singapore. Being so busy after I stepped on my foot on this piece of land as I'm going to abroad in early July for a workshop. Seriously, sometimes I wish to walk by myself upon things, holding your hand is not as warm as you did before. Even how your fingers playing on those pieces are not a special whisper for me anymore. I am dumb when I start to feel curious about someone out there while they never. I know very well that curiosity kills the cat, cause it kills me too. I'm so-not-okay with this condition and situation, everything drives me insane. If I start to tell you "I-don-care" please understand and reply,"You're lying" and hug me tight. I don't want to erase everything on mind if you don't but things.. too late. Some of them telling me not to think about it again and again, I learn how to be brave. Well, i don't know how to stop my eyes from tears, i can't talk any longer, can't decide what I'm thinking cause i'm so blur. I'm so blur.. Frustrated. Goodbye, xxx. "if i don't talk with you today, understand why. You didn't talked to me yesterday"

TOMORROW

2011-06-03T20:55:00.000-07:00

Been the last day since I'm going to have my vacation tomorrow. visit me after I'm back.

xxx

"I know what did she did, she loves you with all her heart, do you realize, dear?"

Story To Tell

2011-06-03T07:13:00.000-07:00

I have myself dreaming of a fabulous life. Working as you wish to be, A rich young lady, have an awesome life as everyone is glance at you like I-wish-to-be-like-her, a good-looking prince by your side, live in the city of fashion, driving a red porsche on the lane, a trend-setter and you are invited to be a first-row runway guest. Something to be worried is you have paparazzi on you, closing your face when you catch them up, running like you don't want they have you in the first page of gossip magazine but you are proud when you are interviewed for being a cover girl, spokeperson or you win an award. Life was amazing when people know who you are but worst when you couldn't be yourself in publics. Self mumbling.. This is what I wish to be, someone in passion, fashion. Interested in this way, drafting some portfolios. When I woken up today, I whispered to myself,"if only a designer wants me to be her/his photographers.." This is my biggest wish. #junewish. As people tweet on twitter these days, they write what they wish to have in June. Some of those wishes are not achieved by the end of June but surely the wishes won't disappear, same as me, I have some wishes that I wrote on twitter but I have a wish that no one knows.. except me. As the end of June I wish to have some strikes on my note telling me that some of them are achieved.

"if there's nobody on your side, don't blame us. We ever welcome you by open the door widely, but you never want to get in"

-anon-

THE GOLDEN EDGY

2011-06-02T21:31:00.000-07:00

beauty shoot by me. featuring two photographers and two local talents <3 voila!

Emon Santoso

Steveny Chandra

Creative Director Carven Yang . Lighting Danny Aw . Make-up Wirandy Widjaya

It's OVER!

2011-06-01T07:55:00.000-07:00

dum dum dum~

the holidays finally come within the start of June. Feel so brand-new when I went out from the class and realized the final was over. Went to grab a lunch at one of Japanese restaurants in town with my girls celebrating our hard work this week. We did it as well, some chats, gossips, laughters colorized that moment.

weekend comes in few days which means I'm going to leave my hometown for a week. Enjoy :)

"somehow we did, remember how everything was so great? I wish to turn the time on, dear.."

HANDS UP!

2011-05-21T06:48:00.000-07:00

Monday is the very last day of Senior High grade one. So, here is it, some of us are going to social study and left are going to science study that means we are going to be separated. Even my girls are going to have the same major with me but one of us is going to attend social study. Sure, We still can meet at school but not for the whole day how we gossip together, take our lunch or even windows shoppings before tuition because we are not going to have the same schedule anymore. I miss how we sleep in the same room during the exam, we share about the handsome guys, we talk about the movies which are on air, we sing our favourite songs together and one sweet thing, we seldom argue. We did have cold-war but not more than an hour. Hey my angel! Study hard! Fighting! Even we are not in the same class, our friendship lasts forever :)

ROCK YOU IPOD

2011-05-21T06:33:00.000-07:00

Pick 10 artists that you love before reading the questions.

Bruno Mars
Lady Gaga
Katy Pery
Taylor Swift
Big Bang
SNSD
Westlife
Fahrenheit
Show Luo
JJ Lin

What was the first song you ever heard by 6?
Gee

What is your favorite song of 8?
Love You More and More

What kind of impact has 1 left on your life?
huge!

What are your favorite lyrics of 5?
*I don't understand Korean*

How many times have you seen 4 live?
never

What is your favorite song by 7?
Fool Again

Is there any song by 3 that makes you sad?
none!

What is your favorite song by 9?
High-Profile Love

When did you first get into 2?
since her first debut

How did you get into 3?
From her song titled I kissed a girl

What is your favorite song by 4?
White Horse

How many times have you seen 9 live?
never

What is a good memory concerning 10?
:')

Is there a song by 8 that makes you sad?
Can Not Love

What is your favorite song of 1?
Marry You

MY WORKING STYLE

2011-05-20T04:54:00.001-07:00

Got this from a quiz while I'm blog-walking :)

You are enthusiastic innovators, always seeing new possibilities and new ways of doing things. You have a lot of imagination and initiative for starting projects, and a lot of impulsive energy for carrying them out. You are stimulated by difficulties and are most ingenious in solving them. You can get so interested in your newest project that you have time for little else. Your energy comes from a succession of new enthusiasms and your world is full of possible projects. Your enthusiasm gets other people interested too.

You see so many possible projects that you sometimes have difficulty picking those with the greatest potential. Your feeling can be useful at this point to help select projects by weighing the value of each. Your feeling judgment can also add depth to the insights supplied by your intuition.

Your feeling preference shows in a concern for people. You are skillful in handling people and often have remarkable insight into the possibilities and development of others. You are extremely perceptive about the attitudes of others, aiming to understand rather than judge people. You are much drawn to counseling and can be inspired and inspiring teacher, particularly where you have freedom to innovate. With talent, you can succeed in almost any field that captures your interest-- art, journalism, science, advertising, sales, the ministry, or writing, for example.

A difficulty for you is that you hate uninspired routine and find it remarkably hard to apply yourself to sometimes necessary detail unconnected with any major interest. Worse yet, you may get bored with your own projects as soon as the major problems have been solved or the initial challenge has been met. You may need to learn to follow through and finish what you have begun, but are happiest and most effective in jobs that permit one project after another, with somebody else taking over as soon as the situation is well in hand.

Because you are always being drawn to the exciting challenges of new possibilities, it is essential that you develop your judgment. If your judgment is undeveloped, you may commit yourself to ill-chosen projects, fail to finish anything, and squander your inspirations by not completing your tasks.

Suitable Careers (some that I like too):

actor
advertising director
artist
entertainer
interior decorator
media specialist

SOMEONE OVER YOU

2011-05-19T04:56:00.000-07:00

She fell into him

He didn't realized

The chemistry kept blowing through

The summer breeze whispers

"I fall into the only prince"

She told him and dancing through

Time passes and moments happened

Nothing lasts but the heart meant to be

He forgot what he said

She keep waiting for nothing

She cried by that day, realized the reality

She went through empty days without him beside

She miss everything about him but he never did the same

She presented her very smiles but he glanced just awhile

She walked slowly by but he kept running away

She played his favorite but he thought she's copycat

Then summer breeze whisper

"no more Summer over Winter, left the icebergs or you'll suffer cold"

"no more roses on the thin ice, they are sleeping during Winter"

"no more love birds on your window in the morning, they are afraid of cold"

"but when there's no more you, world never change much, darling"

She never regret of flying high

She could fly with the birds

She never regret of falling down

She realized what is pain

On the note she wrote

"If Tomorrow never comes then I wish to tell you by, I never regret on everything happened. If Lucifer changed into devil, it's my time to follow her. xoxo"

WE DID

2011-05-18T04:22:00.000-07:00

"You tell me your sweetest promise but then none of them accomplished, I understand why"

GIFTED

2011-05-16T06:40:00.000-07:00

Life is playing some jokes around. I feel so good these days. Well, out of those jerks of course. Lately, the smiles that I present are not longer yours, not either others. They are unreason because no one ever give me a reason to stay. I realized how dumb did I yesterday, wanting everything that couldn't be mine. I supposed to be like others yesterday but not for today, I'm standing alone, very tough but then I smiled. I feel gifted. Lord has His own way for letting me up, even sometimes I fall so hard, He builds paths through my life. Cause everything is so amazing to me :') Sometimes falling down doesn't mean you couldn't wake up. You need to stand, shout,"YOU WILL GET A PUNCH RIGHT ON YOUR FACE!"

CLOSER

2011-05-11T03:42:00.000-07:00

so, here was it. weeks before the final exam. Being so-not-ready. Haven't studied yet and has not enough time to start it. Every time I stare at the clock willingly they stop there by awhile, I need time to rest, close my eyes, take a deep breathe and enjoy fresh breeze but look at my town, it is so hot these days, 35 Celsius degree or even more. It feels like you are in the huge oven!

Actually wish to take rest earlier but has to go for a meeting with some professionals. finger crossed.

NOT DOING WELL

2011-05-06T02:01:00.000-07:00

skip my school again. Actually have my sketching class at 3 but I have fever. I can't close my eyes and have some sleep, I don't know why. Feel so tired, my head is very heavy. Need some more time to rest. XOXO

IT'S WRITTEN ON YOUR FACE

2011-05-05T05:18:00.000-07:00

May is here. Means that Holidays are just few days left and so does exam. Frankly, I'm not sure that I'm going to prove like what I did last semester or I'm going to disappoint them. Not too much, but I feel not there when books are there. What I wish for living is Art. I feel okay when you ask me to sketch this and that, draw this and that, do some digital arts, run for deadlines, search for models and even I don't have much time to sleep. In May, I added some tuitions on my schedule together with I re-arranged it. Something just hit my head seriously, Am I going to prove them the same thing or I will just disappoint them? I wish that I won't..

Just done with watching, sketching homework and blog-walking. I feel not good lately, need rest and sleep. Having a bad headache. Enjoy your day, going to end :)

regards, mauren

PROMISE

2011-04-19T04:04:00.000-07:00

I promise I will. One day I'll show you what I said. I will never let you down..

PATH WAY

2011-04-18T05:44:00.000-07:00

I just don't understand what are they thinking. Is ruining people's life is a best way for enjoy living? If yes, TELL ME WHY. I waste my tears for those irritating people. I waste my time to explain why, why and why.. I lock myself for wondering nothing. I don't know what am I these days, the old me has flying far from here.

Again, I wish to attend my favourite school. Today I debated with pop, all the main reason is someone I hate much. I wish to shout at that time but I cancelled. I just could stand, cry and I feel upset with what I did. Time's ticking, I wish to fly quickly in January. Frankly, I pray to leave my hometown soon. Just for my escape..

TELL ME FRANKLY

2011-04-09T05:13:00.000-07:00

When troubles seem to be your friend, why don't you try to be friend with them? Sometimes, what you saw is manipulating your mind. Been in mellow these days, trying to understand some of them. I wonder why must Lord created murderers, liars, and devils in this world? Am I one of them? Maybe yes. Frankly, I wish to leave this world so soon...

GUILTY

2011-04-05T02:50:00.000-07:00

Not a good day to be spent. Still with swollen eyes, not in a mood me, a very sensitive me. I wonder what did murderer do after they killed a person? Just like them, I've been killed for a long time. I could still stand up and present smiles to everyone around but not a happiness for my own. Did they realised I'm sticking the broken pieces on my own when actually I need to feel the warmth of world? Do they ever tried to move on their fingers between the thick glue which stuck on hands? Do they ever felt the cold in the winter without a thick blanket, while we were struggling between dark and cold? When I granted achievements, that lady being so proud and told them about it. Have they greeted me, told me that I'm so great even that actually I'm so weak? At least they smile, it's okay. THE ANSWER IS, THEY NEVER. One day, I will be back, laughing at them. Teasing them. Kill them back. Lord is just postpone to present me the gift. just postponed.

formspring.me

2011-04-05T00:02:00.001-07:00

anything and I will answer you with my personal integrity :) http://formspring.me/tanakamauren

HEART

2011-04-02T06:17:00.000-07:00

Just finished a seminar by Tramizy Harva, a photography seminar. This time they didn't discussed about Fashion nor Beauty photography as I always attend usual.

So, today, I'm going to tell more about photography, which lately

become one of my passions. Anw, I just explained it to my family, about Kevin Carter blah blah.

Do you know who's Kevin Carter? Well, for some that don't know, he was a photojournalist in era 90's. He died on 27th July 1994, 3 months after he took a picture in Sudan about an emaciated Sudanese that stopped while struggling to a feeding centre, then a vulture stopped not far away from her. he had been waiting for 20 minutes before he captured the moment, then he went away. no one knew what happened after that, even himself. The picture was sold to New York times and hundred of people were calling to the office by that night. Not a long time, Nancy Buirski called him and told him that he awarded Pulitzer Prize for Feature Photography.

On 27th July 1994, Carter drove to Braamfontein Spruit River, a place he used to play when he was a kid. He suicided. He left a note, written,"I am depressed.. Without phone.. Money for rent.. Money for child support.. Money for debts.. money!! I am haunted by the vivid memories of killings and corpses and anger and pain.. of starving or wounded children, of trigger-happy mad men, often police, of killer executioners, I have gone to join Ken if I am that lucky.."

Then, few years ago, the girl that was in the picture appeared in feeding centre in Sudan. She grows normally just like others but Carter was died because of suicide. The question is, WHO IS THE MURDERER? CARTER WHO SAW THE SUFFERING GIRL AND HAD A SHOOT ON THE MOMENT OR THE GIRL WHO WAS IN THE PICTURE THAT MADE CARTER SUICIDED OR THE READERS WHO CRITICS THE PHOTO?

Here is the picture that Carter captured and granted an award..

KEVIN CARTER WHEN HE WAS ALIVE

THE PICTURE ABOUT A SUFFERING SUDANESE

regards, mauren.

PS: everything changes my life when you were leaving.

April the Fool

2011-04-01T07:02:00.000-07:00

What is your first impression of the early April? Well, it was an awful day for me. Sitting in front of the lappy and can't hold those tears to roll over my cheeks. When trust and love were built in years, they ruins instantly not in a day. When they are just a mask to put on. I wonder why "BROKEN", this word does exist in world. I'm thinking how to move on from my situation, a place where do people never wanted to be in it. I was being fed up by some people today but nothing compare to this. I thought they were just a part of mistaken, people that never stay long in my life. Who do i care much compare to what's happening? April does really FOOL. fml

PS: You leaved some scars right on my trust.

#MARCHWISHES FULFILLED

2011-03-29T04:55:00.000-07:00

I'm so up. Thank you for my parents and grandparents who really support me in my way to reach my ambition. Recently, my wishes for this month are all fulfilled. Showing them with what I grant later on is the best way. I love you, people. Not talking too much. Busy with my own toys :D

Saturday Mumbles

2011-03-26T06:07:00.000-07:00

TEN things about yourself:

Haven't reached sixteen
a PINK lover
Being an art-worker is one of my ambition lately
write almost every part of life where ever
Find me if you need a friend to travel with
irritated with them who know nothing and scream something without thinking back
forgive but not forget
admit it. I'm a stubborn.
waiting for a prince charming
world is just too beautiful for I am

NINE of your favourite songs:

Bruno Mars - Marry You
Yiruma - Love Me
Richard Clayderman - Ballade Pour Adeline
Katty Perry - Teenage Dream
Yee Sung - It has been you
Tae Yang - Wedding Dress
Radio Head - 15 Steps
Big Bang - Lies
Train - Marry Me

EIGHT things you love/like:

unlimited money for me to spend
Bags
Travelling
Coffees
Tiramisu
Sushi
unlimited internet connection
perfumes

SEVEN people you’re glad to have in your life:

parents
grandparents
brother
friends
you
enemies
relatives

SIX things you dislike:

people talking me behind
people spreading untruth things
insects
when they treat me like a baby
betrayers
trapped in the jam while I have something important to be rushed

FIVE things you wish you could say to FIVE different people right now:

Having you beside is the best way
do you need a mirror? at least you check on yourself before talk
you've changed
I adore you much. How I wish to be like you.
J'adore <3

FOUR ways to win your heart:

friendly not a snob one
sweet things make me fly
always be there for me
charming smile

THREE things you’ll most likely never forget:

beautiful moments
times when you were down and broken
how you are just a step to grant your wish

TWO things you do everyday:

breathing
thinking

ONE confession:

I'm a cry baby

A WISH TO WISH

2011-03-24T05:15:00.000-07:00

I wish a wish that you wish :)

-MAUREN PHOTOGRAPHY-

Knock Out

2011-03-15T04:04:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is the very last day of this semester first monthly examination. A week of tough yet fatigue, trying to prove the best. Stay awake in midnight just for reviewing all those materials and sleep not more than hours. Fu~ I'm knocked out as tomorrow is going to be the end. Have a plan to go for swimming, but I don't get the permit from parents. Forbid to play in the water blah blah.

Sometimes I feel like a toodler that need so much protections from people around. The fact is I'm a grown up, a teenage who's going to be sixteen this year November third. Again, as I said, they care too much. I know it's because they love me but sometimes it's irritated me. Mom, Pop, think positively, please. Maybe you need to let me enjoy my own world, not keep protecting me as I'm a little girl. I know how to do everything well, make difference between bad and good as you taught me when I was kid. One thing, I wish to prove what I've been struggling in. I've promised what to be and now it's my time to show it, right? So, let me have my own world just to prove it up. Once.. It's okay.

Do realise people changes. Too extreme for everything. I keep telling myself,"Do what you need today. Let tomorrow decides next". I'm steady for the changes, I'm ready for falling down or even flying high. I just too scared of facts by yesterday. Sometimes, world is just too unfair for you.

Ah~ time's speaking. 06.32 PM. decided to end this post, close the PC and start study for tomorrow's :)

Last but not least, cherish who are beside you. I have everyone here. Included you.

Regards, mauren.

You Deserve BETTER

2011-02-19T06:18:00.000-08:00

a hectic busy week and now I'm focusing on my dream, being an art-worker. I had a Photography Seminar at school just now and do really into it. Had my conceptual photoshot themed "I LOVE INDONESIA" for one of my school competition. GUESS WHAT! We grant the second place and pass to final :D So, we are hunting for some decorations smell so Indonesia, beloved hometown.

Lord, give us strength to fight. We promise to make them proud, Millefeuille..

one of my favourite picture I captured

One of my photographs

people asked,"What do the first thing you think about when you wake up?". With my courage, I answer,"Someone is on my phone when I open up my eyes"

regards, mauren

PS: sorry for today. I don't mean it :(

Like There's No Tomorrow

2011-02-15T04:58:00.001-08:00

Tiring days. I have my holiday today but I feel like this is not holiday, I still need to wake up early in the morning. Hit IT&B for Indonesian Debate Competition, sorry, but we lose it :( Just 10 points difference but it remained much.

How about yesterday? Photography contest and too BAD, the size wasn't like they want, that means we will lose for this competition again. Now I need is just LUCKS, bunch of them. I'm lack of sleep nowadays, I sleep at midnight and need to wake up early in the morning everyday no exception for weekend. Where's my weekend that I used to yell when it's coming? I feel hectic for my life. Escape? May I? I wish to.

Valentine was just a day passed, nothing special on it except how I shared some handmade chocolates to them, special people in my life. I spent it with my daily activities, so there was nothing special happened.. no Valentine, darling.

regards, mauren

I WISH TO...

2011-02-11T04:29:00.000-08:00

God created a wrong man like you do, dude. So, this man, I just knew him not long time ago. I met him as friend and I don't even know his real face. So we chatted, we joked but still as a friend. Then, few days ago, he told me what he shouldn't and I didn't accepted it as well I have another man in heart. So, I told him the reason and he still that stubborn and told me his reasons. I just told him to wait, don't know for how long but as much I won't accept it as well.

Days pass and I got it that he has a girl, it has been five months. Jerk! those things were just few days ago and suddenly I felt like a doll, a robot. Anyway, Thanks God that I didn't accept those rubbish but still I'm pissed off with those things. BOY, DRIVE YOU TO ANOTHER PLANET! YOU ARE UNACCEPTABLE IN EARTH, CAUSE YOU WERE BORN WITHOUT BRAIN!

Anw, after threw him up with some sarcasms, guess what did he replied,"I was playing with you by that time" ohman! are you feeling special? F you up! I'm not your toy!

regrrds, mauren

PS: sorry for the rude word, I do pissed off

This Is What I Am

2011-01-08T05:05:00.000-08:00

I was shocked when I accepted the call. It was unbelieveable. After what I'd done, after what I'd spent and times I'd wasted, it might not be the best but at least this is my hard works.Someone has not been in Medan right now but will come back tomorrow. Well, kinda miss the texts, the laughs, the emotions and my goodnights and goodmornings. I realized time flies and things are changing, CNY is coming and I can't wait for yelling!

WELCOME 2011, GOODBYE 2010

2010-12-31T22:38:00.000-08:00

A new year starts with a great beginning. Well, my beginning is really a great start. Your call even just for a short time, just a simple greeting but it lasts in my mind. You could say I'm insane but I really do. I slept at 3 woke up at 10, the latest time I woken up since my holidays. Never been this late, my mom forbids us to wake up late is the reason. Just because we slept over at Grans' and we did what we loved to. NYAHAHA

Enjoy your very first day of 2011. May this year brings you happiness, longevity and prosperity. May this year be a better year for all of us. May all your dreams come true. AMEN :D

regards, mauren

PS: Let me starts my day with you

The Worst New Year's Eve

2010-12-31T02:47:00.000-08:00

I'M DOOMED

红线

2010-12-25T06:00:00.000-08:00

Just ended my movie -- counted as my fave movie this year -- 愛∞無限 Endless Love. I would like to recommend this drama to everyone. Well, I'm just in love with the plot, very into it and I cry almost all the show. I finish the movie in two days and my eyes are swollen right now.

Well, my mom and pop could just keep shaking their heads while they watched me cry like there would be no tomorrow. Such a silly thing but really this movie is hypnotizing me. The plot, the characters, the words.. GREAT!

The story is about a couple who was tied by a red string. Well, legend ever said, "When a couple was tied by a red string, even how far they could be, even they were enemy, at last they will be a couple".

Song Rui En had always believed that she would marry Li Min Shou one day, once he stopped seeing her as a little sister. but that belief changed after she met Liang Jing Hao, a wisecracking guy who turned her world upside down. She was a girl from a rich family without a care in the world. He was a man with a haunted past. They overcame many obstacles to be together. But when Jing Hao disappear on the day they before they married, she was at a loss. Three years later, fate brought them together. This time she refuses to let anything or anyone get in their way of their love.

RECOMMENDED!

here's the quote I love the most from the movie:

"如果你真心的等着，你等的人就会在门口出现。万亿是百多年都无所谓。"

regards, mauren.

PS: remember, I always walk by your side, dear.

CHANGING

2010-12-10T04:53:00.000-08:00

TGIF!

So, I went to a consultancy office about study abroad. much more the informations were shocking me but at least I know a lot now. LASALLE has changed their terms, they aren't going to accept student before they graduated from Senior Year. This is the main reason I feel shocked, it was not like the information I got, not like what I expected. then, LASALLE is not going to accept portfolios which using digital art, that means we need to create them with these two hands. For this, I feel like, I'm just another handicap. I am not able to draw well, this is the main reason. All these years, Im focusing on Digital Art, Photography, Photos editing.. which mean they are useless. DISAPPOINTED. Yes, I feel this way. BUT! after things which made me feel extremely down, I could find out some brightness, I call them brightness. One, I still have two years for my preparation which means I am able to learn more and more and a lot of time for preparing 10 portfolios. Two, I'm going to join LASALLE WORKSHOP this January which means I'm going to absence for two days. Too bad, I'm not going alone, actually I want to help mom about our savings, the ticket is not really cheap. I'm excited! Believe that one day I would able to yell,"LASALLE DEAR! HELLO!!!" :D

Changing? yes, everything's changing. HE ever told me,"don't believe too much on a person or it will ruin you". I remember and always :)

regards, mauren.

PS: Promise me, you will always there for me.

100 THINGS ABOUT ME (RE-POST)

2010-12-07T01:04:00.000-08:00

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

1. Last beverage: Mineral Water
2. Last phone call : Momma
3. Last text message: Felix TC
4. Last song you listened to: Wang Lee Hom - Yi Shou Jian Dan De Ge *one of his favorites*
5. Last time you cried: yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: no, I never go on date :)
7. Been cheated on: absolutely yes, I think you ever been cheated too right?
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: I never kissed
9. Lost someone special: no, because he is still here :)
10. Been depressed: ever
11. Been drunk and threw up: never

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. black
13. pink
14. denim blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

15. Made a new friend: yes! I meet new people ever day is the main reason.
16. Fallen out of love: definitely yes
17. Laughed until you cried: ever, once.
18. Met someone who changed you: yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: I always have them :)
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yes! I hope they will regret what they have done. they are just annoying :p
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: NO
22. How many people on your friends list do you know: I add them because I know them
23. How many kids do you want?: never think about it yet
24. Do you have any pets: two! they are CUTE!
25. Do you want to change your name: a big big NO. I love my name :D
26. What did you do for your last birthday: firstly, there's a call from someone at 4 o'clock :) unforgettable.
27. What time did you wake up today: 3 :( a nightmare woken me.
28. What were you doing at midnight: still tweeting with a panda's eyes. ho-oh
29. Name something you can't wait for: accepted by LASALLE (?)
30. Last time you saw your Mother: just now before she went to a mall with my lil

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my weight
32. eyes color: dark brown
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: is Thomas counted as TOM?
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: him
35. Most visited webpage: facebook, twitter and blog!
36. Whats your real name: MAUREN TANAKA
37. Nicknames: mollen *I have some others too*
38. Relationship Status: single prefect
39. Zodiac sign: Scorpion
40. Male or female?: female
41. Primary school: Sutomo1
42. Secondary school: sutomo1
43. High school/college/university?: sutomo1 and I wish my college is LASALLE
44. Hair color: black
45. Long or short: short

46. Height: 163
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: yes and he's the one :)
48: What do you like about yourself?: almost my everything
49. Piercings: nope
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS:

52. First surgery: never had any
53. First piercing: never
54. First best friend: Debbie
55. First sport you joined: basketball
56. First vacation: Singapore
58. First pair of trainers: never

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating: no
60. Drinking:no
61. I'm about to: check who's on my phone LCD right now :p
62. Listening to: nothing
63. Waiting for: someone's text

YOUR FUTURE
64. Want kids?: no yet think about it
65. Get Married?: not really
66. Career?: yes!

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses : both
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: arms?
73. Sensitive or loud: loud! rock
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a strange : no!
77. Drank hard liquor: no!
78. Lost glasses/contacts: no
79. Sex on first date: no!
80. Broken someone's heart: I guess so..
83. Turned someone down: maybe
84. Cried when someone died: who's the person?
85. Fallen for a friend?: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: I'm such an optimist
87. Miracles: sometimes
88. Love at first sight : never, but become a fan of first sight
89. Heaven: yesssss
90. Santa Claus: when I was toddler, but now a huge NO
91. Kiss on the first date: no!
92. Angels: maybe

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: never
95. Did you sing today?: yes. I sing almost every hours :D
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: YES YES YEEESSSS
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? : when I was on grade 5
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it: 2nd of November, 2010
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yes, but I really do.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: YES IF YOU TRUST ME.

RE-POST

2010-12-05T00:24:00.000-08:00

Name: Mauren Tanaka
Birthday: 3rd November 1995
Age: 15
Sex: F
Location: Indonesia
Nationality: Indonesian
Religion: Buddha

Favorite:
Drink: Lemon Tea, Strawberry Smocchies
Restaurant: Bakerzin
TV Show: don't really love to watch TV
City: Singapore, Paris
Food: french fries, tenderloin, fried rice and sushi
Dessert: cheesecake
Magazine: gogirl, cosmogirl, bgirl, asianstar, sister, concept, bazaar, Photos of You, Reader's Digest
Way to Relax: music, design and outdoor
Place: my room
Cell Phone: blackberry
Designer: Coco Chanel
Shoe: Prada
Date: -
Color: Denim Blue
Day: windy
Season: winter
Makeup: -
Store: as long as it sells good things
Boy: MR. SOMEONE

Movie: I love what I watched
Animal: dolphin
Form of Transportation: as long as it works *hihi*
Actor: Aaron Yan, Richard Gere, Taylor Lautner
Outfit: depends on mood

Describe your…
Wallet: Orange
Toothbrush: pink pepsodent
Jewelry Always : bangle
Pillowcase: pink
Eyes: dark brown
Room: it's pink!
Love Life: waiting for the prince with his white horse to fetch her from her castle :)
Piercings: ears
Wearing: "I LOVE BALI" tee and denim shorts
Wanting: happiness, success, wealthy, health
On the iPod: Train - Marry Me
Last thing you ate: Seaweed
Something you’re afraid of: God

Shout Out the Loneliness

2010-12-04T23:19:00.000-08:00

Hello, Mr. December. Which is the very last month of a year and some days to go before we need to say "Good Bye, 2010". Which also means the examination is closer to us and so do holidays even we just have them for two weeks which I should say it is not enough for me.

I haven't made any preparation for my examination yet. Honestly, I'm a lazy, I brought out my book, I open it, I read for a sentence... then, I threw it on my floor. I promised to start my study for next hour but I always caught myself yelling, "MALAS" as I never start my study. Maybe it will just be like that.

Something in the past, you ignored, you never mention about, will suddenly hit yourself in the future. Yes, I'm in this condition and I'm trying to escape. Sometimes, they caught me wondering for nothing. They said I'm a fool but situation who built me.. Give me some strength, please.

tee-hee! I'm not going to think about those useless things anymore :D tell yourself, Mauren Tanaka, you are different! You have others things that are more important than these kind of useless :D gambatte!

regards, mauren.

PS: You never told me why but you always there for me and I will be your star, I promise.

HAPPY TWO-YEAR-OLD MY DEAREST BLOG

2010-10-30T05:30:00.000-07:00

You are the only escape

You are the only place

You are the only one

I share

I tell

I give

When I'm alone, I tell you

When I'm down, I tell you

Even when I'm up, I tell you

I wrote down everything here

I shared everything here

I posted everything here

I remember clearly when the first time I created you, I was still blind, didn't know how to post something even changed your template.

I remember clearly when I was desperate, don't know what to do, you were the only one I could share and escape.

Happy two-year-old, blog :D

LOVE YOU SO DAMN MUCH!

regards, mauren

#NOWPLAYING

2010-10-27T04:37:00.000-07:00

不會再後退也不能再挽回
我們之間的一切讓我的心殘廢
要多少智慧才能夠無所謂
倒不如給幸福多一次機會

我不想難過你選擇了沉默
我們笑把感傷輕輕帶過
如果能夠重新來過
我們有沒有把握

只是放開這樣的你並不容易
為何這一切已註定
不爭氣這對你著迷的心
留下難堪的自己
相信我會痊癒

原來這場戰役我輸得最徹底
勝利的你卻不屑的走下去
留下無法磨滅的回憶
愛你勝過自己

不會再後退也不能再挽回
我們之間的一切讓我的心殘廢
要多少智慧才能夠無所謂
倒不如給幸福多一次機會

我不想難過你選擇了沉默
我們笑把感傷輕輕帶過
如果能夠重新來過
我們有沒有把握

只是放開這樣的你並不容易
為何這一切已註定
不爭氣這對你著迷的心
留下難堪的自己
相信我會痊癒

原來這場戰役我輸得最徹底
勝利的你卻不屑的走下去
留下無法磨滅的回憶
愛你勝過自己

只是放開這樣的你並不容易
為何這一切已註定
不爭氣這對你著迷的心
留下難堪的自己
相信我會痊癒

原來這場戰役我輸得最徹底
勝利的你卻不屑的走下去
留下無法磨滅的回憶
愛你勝過自己

Nicholas Teo - Ai Ni Sheng Guo Zi Ji

Regards, mauren

GONE

2010-09-03T04:55:00.000-07:00

10:25:55 AM

Sitting in the same class, it's Bahasa Indonesia's lesson. Everything seems to be so different even some of the classmates are still the same. Some new members have entered our class, we can't called it as Millefeuille again because.. the chemistry as usual Millefeuille's members done together just lose easily since a paper told us who will move to other class.

This is not like the class we used to be. No more laughters, no more noises and crazy acts! No teachers who always scolded us with "KESADARANNYA NAK!" or "EMANG KALIAN NGGA BISA DI ATUR YAH!". No MORE :(

For some who have moved:

We lose our Delivery man, ARGA SARAGIH. He has attended the Acceleration Class, yes, Congratulation, Ga! You worth getting it, mamen! but.. we really lose you : ( I remember everyday we always yelled,"GA, MAKAN APA HARI INI?!" Then you answered,"BIAAASAAA.. NASI LOK LOK" HAHAHA yes, We MISS YOU, Ga!!

We lose our Monitor, JEFRY KUSUMA. He's GREAT! He attends the Plus Class and he doesn't has any tuition except Physics and Mandarin. How I envy him so much. If I could be another him, I bet my family will be so proud of me! Our monitor always yelled KAGE to shut up his mouth. We lose you, Mr. MONITOR!

We lose two of our great musicians, JENNIFER HALIM & DEBORA SANNY TEOH. Jen attends the Plus Class and Debora attend the Acceleration Class just the same with Arga does. Both of them always been together, really a great combination of two genius girls. They used to play music on the table even they know the table won't produce any sounds, but they played with feels!

We lose STELLA, ERIN, CLARICE, INEZ, & JENSEN KOSEN. We gonna miss you, people!

anw, I miss one of my butt, JENNESSIA CHANCE. CONGRATZ, JEN! Finally you are The Acceleration's student. I am going to miss our time that has spent when we are in the same tuition, dear :( We used to gossip about boys, especially THOSE WHO ARE HANDSOME :* HAHA. Great luck for your new class, Jen!!!!!! XOXO

regards, mauren

PS: You are the only one

SEPTEMBER

2010-09-01T04:15:00.000-07:00

Happiness is like a kiss. You must share it to enjoy it.

Bernard Meltzer

regards, mauren

PS: Man, ILY

MILLEFEUILLE FOREVER AFTER

2010-08-30T03:19:00.000-07:00

Millefeuille, born in the year 2009 still as IX-04. Our form teacher was Ms. Lie Ching who taught English. Millefeuille's members was still 56 till some of us were moved to another city or even another school. Millefeuille is super solid and we always make some noises and crazy things, teachers always scold us and we never change. It's our trademark for searching some sensation around. Our class will always crowded with members' voices, laughters, shouts and so on. We know that some teachers hate our class too much because of our naughty acts, but I'm pretty sure some of them love our class too.

Now, Millefeuille is in the first year of Junior High as X-04 which the form teacher is Bu Murni Silalahi and teaches us Economic Education. Millefuille's members was reduced to 54 people. New member was just included few days ago, named Billy. Millefuille still that noisy, still that crazy and still that solid.

As, I told you before, 1st of September, the first year of Junior High in Sutomo will be separated based on score and attitude. So, it means Millefeuille included as one of classes which will be separated. Millefeuille means so deep for me, it is just like another family for me. I have my mom, my dad even my children all are Millefuille's members. Our daily, we gossip, we chat, we talk, we cry, we smile, we laugh, we go crazy, we punished, all those things were done together inside our little comfy nest. Who said solid class never fought? Yes, we fought too. We have some troubles with some members, we talk about them behind them even it is cruel. We have enemies inside the class too but actually we keep protecting each others. Guess, how deep our feeling are? WE WILL NEVER BE SEPARATED EVEN THE TRUTH WE ARE SEPARATED.

As the flash back, we attended the annual competitions of school. It was our first time, because just start from Secondary students may attend the competition. I still remember clearly, it was tug of war (tarik tambang) contest. Men and Women. I was one of the competitor too for women side. As the competition started, we wore our class' tee, we yelled and supported our class. It was unforgotable moment. Actually we lost. Our class got no medals, but we achieve the precious moment. We spent the moment together with laughter, energy, and happiness. Do you know, Millefuille, I miss that moment so much. I miss every moment we have passed together.

School days are not a school daze for me because I spent it with Millefeuille. I hope everyone thinks so. HAHA

Aw, damn, I am crying and smiling in the same time. It's because of you, Millefeuille! LOL

again, I LOVE MILLEFEUILLE TO THE MAX! YUUUHUUUUU

some bonuses:

regards, mauren

WE WILL NOT BE SEPARATED

2010-08-30T02:40:00.000-07:00

I skipped my tuition again, fellas. I feel superb exhausted and I don't know what to do again, there are still tons of homework but my butt doesn't want to move on from this chair. Ew, my position is so comfortable..

Fellas, I won't post about any lyrics for today because I'm in great dilemma, you are the only way to share all my things out. Figure out, my class would be separated this 1st of September. I don't know how to describe my sadness, I love my class. We have been together since primary and now we are in Junior High and we already feel so close to each other, even when some of us still got some troubles inside, but actually we love each other so much and it is just like one big family. So, we gotta be separated maybe this 1st of September ( it was written like that on the education calendar), some who are genius enough will attend the plus class and some who are noisy will attend the last class and just some will be together but not in X-04, maybe we will be moved to X-05 or X-06 or even X-07, depends. I'm pretty sure, some of those students who are not in Millefeuille also don't want their class be separated. Mr. Khoe Tjok Tjin, why don't you separate us from the first day in Junior High? we have become accustomed to our class after a few months and know that we will be separated..

Last thing from me: GOOD BYE MILLEFEUILLE, WISH YOU GUYS ENJOY YOUR NEW CLASS :)

Regards, mauren

PS: I love you even you never ask me for

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL JACKSON

2010-08-28T23:54:00.000-07:00

ALTHOUGH OUR KING OF POP HAS GONE FOR A LONG TIME AND COULDN'T BACK FOR ENTERTAIN US AGAIN, BUT.. WE WON'T FORGET HIM AND NO ONE CAN REPLACE HIS PLACE AS KING OF THE POP TILL NOW :)

I WILL PRESENT ONE OF HIS COLLECTION TITLED "THRILLER" TODAY

It's close to midnight and something evil's lurking in the dark
Under the moonlight, you see a sight that almost stops your heart
You try to scream but terror takes the sound before you make it
You start to freeze as horror looks you right between the eyes
You're paralyzed

'Cause this is thriller, thriller night
And no one's gonna save you from the beast about strike
You know it's thriller, thriller night
You're fighting for your life inside a killer, thriller tonight

You hear the door slam and realize there's nowhere left to run
You feel the cold hand and wonder if you'll ever see the sun
You close your eyes and hope that this is just imagination, girl!
But all the while you hear the creature creeping up behind
You're out of time

'Cause this is thriller, thriller night
There ain't no second chance against the thing with forty eyes, girl
Thriller, thriller night
You're fighting for your life inside a killer, thriller tonight

Night creatures calling, the dead start to walk in their masquerade
There's no escaping the jaws of the alien this time
(They're open wide)
This is the end of your life

They're out to get you, there's demons closing in on every side
They will possess you unless you change that number on your dial
Now is the time for you and I to cuddle close together, yeah
All through the night I'll save you from the terror on the screen
I'll make you see

That this is thriller, thriller night
'Cause I can thrill you more than any ghost would ever dare try
Thriller, thriller night
So let me hold you tight and share a
Killer, diller, chiller, thriller here tonight

'Cause this is thriller, thriller night
Girl, I can thrill you more than any ghost would ever dare try
Thriller, thriller night
So let me hold you tight and share a killer, thriller, ow!

(I'm gonna thrill ya tonight)
Darkness falls across the land
The midnight hour is close at hand
Creatures crawl in search of blood
To terrorize y'alls neighborhood

I'm gonna thrill ya tonight, ooh baby
I'm gonna thrill ya tonight, oh darlin'
Thriller night, baby, ooh!

The foulest stench is in the air
The funk of forty thousand years
And grizzly ghouls from every tomb
Are closing in to seal your doom

And though you fight to stay alive
Your body starts to shiver
For no mere mortal can resist
The evil of the thriller

Regards, mauren

PS: I will be waiting for you even it is for thousands days..

MINE

2010-08-25T02:14:00.000-07:00

#NOWPLAYING TAYLOR SWIFT - MINE

Uh, uh, uh oh
Uh, uh, uh oh

You were in college working part time waiting tables
Left a small town, never looked back
I was the flight risk with the fear of fallin'
Wonderin' why we bothered with love if it never lasts

I say "Can you believe it?"
As we're lying on the couch
The moment I can see it
Yes, yes I can see it now

Do you remember we were sittin' there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward and we're taking on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learned my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

But we've got bills to pay
We got nothing figured out
When it was hard to take yes, yes
This is what I thought about

Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Uh, uh, uh, oh

And I remember that fight 2:30 AM
Cause everything was slippin' right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye
Cause that's all I've ever known
And you took me by surprise
You said "I'll never leave you alone"

You said
"I remember how we felt sittin' by the water
And every time I look at you it's like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
She is the best thing that's ever been mine"

(Hold on, we'll make it last)
(Hold on, never turn back)
(Hold on) You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
(Hold on) You are the best thing that's ever been mine

(Hold on) Do you believe it?
(Hold on) We're gonna make it now
(Hold on) And I can see it
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
I can see it now

REDARDS, MAUREN

PS: meeting you such a great thing, man!

SHERO

2010-08-22T00:59:00.000-07:00

Aw, It's Sunday what I'm waiting for lately and suddenly come. HAHA happy Sunday, guys. Enjoy your Sunday :)

Fellas, gotta present you with the most adorable S.H.E's song - Shero:

陪自己看煙火陪著自己去兜風
向軟弱說分手自己旅行自己夢

喝一罐冰啤酒灌溉久違的酒窩
讓笑容回到雙頰的粉紅

那是誰說女孩沒有ROCK'N ROLL
我對我說當最後只剩下我誰是我英雄?

看不到找不到等不到妳的 HERO
為何不作自己隻手撐天的 SHERO

妳可以我可以為自己赴湯蹈火的SHERO
像女王揮舞著驕傲披風

先轉身先自由先說再見先解脫
世界在他背後原來這麼的遼闊

也堅強也溫柔也有緊握的拳頭
去敲奏全新生活的節奏

那是誰說女孩沒有ROCK'N ROLL
我對我說當最後只剩下我誰是我英雄?

看不到找不到等不到妳的 HERO
為何不作自己隻手撐天的 SHERO

妳可以我可以為自己赴湯蹈火的SHERO
像女王揮舞著驕傲披風

在我的編年史中寫下了一個傳說
要把History 改寫成Herstory

在我的回憶錄中快樂要蔓延很久
那就今天開始建造我王國我是女王一般的SHERO

看不到找不到等不到妳的 HERO
為何不作自己隻手撐天的 SHERO

妳可以我可以為自己赴湯蹈火不再退縮

不要了不找了不等了誰要 HERO
站出來作自己隻手撐天的 SHERO

妳可以我可以為自己赴湯蹈火的SHERO
像女王揮舞著驕傲披風

pei zi ji kan yan huo pei zhao zi ji qu dou feng
xiang ruan ruo shuo fen shou zi ji lu xing zi ji meng

he yi guan bing pi jiu guan gai jiu wei de jiu wo
rang xiao rong hui dao shuang jia de fen hong

na shi shui shuo nu hai mei you ROCK'N ROLL
wo dui wo shuo dang zui hou zhi sheng xia wo shui shi wo ying xiong?

kan bu dao zhao bu dao deng bu dao ni de HERO
wei he bu zuo zi ji zhi shou cheng tian de SHERO

ni ke yi wo ke yi wei zi ji fu tang dao huo de SHERO
xiang nu wang hui wu zhao jiao ao pi feng

xian zhuan shen xian zi you xian shuo zai jian xian jie tuo
shi jie zai ta bei hou yuan lai zhe me de liao kuo

ye jian qiang ye wen rou ye you jin wo de quan tou
qu qiao zou quan xin sheng huo de jie zou

na shi shui shuo nu hai mei you ROCK'N ROLL
wo dui wo shuo dang zui hou zhi sheng xia wo shui shi wo ying xiong?

kan bu dao zhao bu dao deng bu dao ni de HERO
wei he bu zuo zi ji zhi shou cheng tian de SHERO

ni ke yi wo ke yi wei zi ji fu tang dao huo de SHERO
xiang nu wang hui wu zhao jiao ao pi feng

zai wo de bian nian shi zhong xie xia le yi ge chuan shuo
yao ba History gai xie cheng Herstory

zai wo de hui yi lu zhong kuai le yao man yan hen jiu
na jiu jin tian kai shi jian zao wo wang guo wo shi nu wang yi ban de SHERO

kan bu dao zhao bu dao deng bu dao ni de HERO
wei he bu zuo zi ji zhi shou cheng tian de SHERO

ni ke yi wo ke yi wei zi ji fu tang dao huo bu zai tui suo

bu yao le bu zhao le bu deng le shui yao HERO
zhan chu lai zuo zi ji zhi shou cheng tian de SHERO

ni ke yi wo ke yi wei zi ji fu tang dao huo de SHERO
xiang nu wang hui wu zhao jiao ao pi feng

regards, mauren

PS: hello, man. Thanks for being my man :) ILY

better die because hungry or die because of love? :)

2010-08-21T23:02:00.001-07:00

die because love, because if you are hungry the one who loves you will bring you food. is it?

anything and I will answer you with my personal integrity :)

BITTER TEA

2010-08-11T21:50:00.000-07:00

recently listen to the soundtrack of BROWN SUGAR MACCHIATO titled 苦茶. The song tells us how bitter do love and myself 75% agree to it. yes, the first time you know love, you can't back t0 the world where you are still plain without anybody inside your mind. Love must be so sweet when you fall into someone, but love must be so bitter when your lover left you. Don't it?

微微笑的看你越是認真就越讓人心疼
wei xiao de kan ni, yue shi ren zhen jiu yue rang ren xin teng
Smiling slightly as I looked at you; the more serious you looked, the more painful my heart was

街頭那盞路燈彷彿在笑我愚笨
jie tou na zhan lu deng fang fu zai xiao wo yu ben
The street-lamp at the start of the road seemed to be laughing at me for being stupid.

Sung by 小傑 Xiao-jie:

沒什麼能做但我比誰都真誠
mei shen me neng zuo, dan wo bi shui dou zhen cheng
There’s nothing much I can do, but I have more sincerity than everyone else.

泡一杯苦茶陪伴你到夜深
pao yi bei ku cha, pei ban ni dao ye shen
brew a cup of bitter tea, and accompany you till the wee hours of the morning.

Sung by 小煜 Xiao-yu:

你知不知道你總有一種很可愛的獨特
ni zhi bu zhi dao, ni zong you yi zhong hen ke ai de du te
Did you know, that you have a very adorable uniqueness,

讓我充滿勇氣抵抗冬天的寒冷
rang wo chong man yong qi di dang dong tian de han leng
That fills me up with courage to battle the coldness of winter.

怎樣做才會完美像個男人
zen yang zuo cai hui wan mei, xiang ge nan ren?
What must I do to be perfect, like a real man?

喝一杯苦茶溫暖你的體溫
he yi bei ku cha wen nuan ni de ti wen
Drink a cup of bitter tea, to warm your body temperature.

Sung by Hei Se Hui Mei Mei:

*chorus*

不用等你開口先說我愛你
bu yong deng ni kai kou xian shuo wo ai ni
There’s no need to wait for you to say “I love you” first

在那之前想對你說我願意
zai na zhi qian xiang dui ni shuo wo yuan yi
Before that I’d like to tell you “I do”.

你不必問你也不必等
ni bu bi wen, ni ye bu bi deng
You don’t have to ask, neither do you need to wait

這一刻就值得愛到永恆
zhe yi ke, jiu zhi de ai dao yong heng
Just this moment, is worth loving till eternity.

我該如何讓你明白我愛你
wo gai ru he rang ni ming bai wo ai ni?
How can I let you understand that I love you?

在那之後你點頭說我願意
zai na zhi hou ni dian tou shuo wo yuan yi
After that you nod and say “I do”.

想照顧你想守護著你
xiang zhao gu ni, xiang shou hu zhe ni
want to take care of you and protect you

這一刻就想把你抱緊
zhe yi ke, jiu xiang ba ni bao jin
At this moment, [I] just want to hold you tightly.

Sung by Hei Se Hui Mei Mei:

你知不知道你也有一種很可愛的天真
ni zhi bu zhi dao ni ye you yi zhong hen ke ai de tian zhen
Did you know that you also have a very adorable naïvety

大男孩的口吻魅力加到一百分
da nan hai de kou wen, mei li jia dao yi bai fen
Your speaking like a male chauvinist perfects your charm to 100 percent.

Sung by Lollipop:

怎樣做才會完美像個男人
zen yang zuo cai hui wan mei, xiang ge nan ren?
What must I do to be perfect, like a real man?

喝一杯苦茶溫暖你的體溫
he yi bei ku cha wen nuan ni de ti wen
Drink a cup of bitter tea, to warm your body temperature.

Sung by Hei Se Hui Mei Mei:

[I]*chorus*

不用等你開口先說我愛你
bu yong deng ni kai kou xian shuo wo ai ni
There’s no need to wait for you to say “I love you” first

在那之前想對你說我願意
zai na zhi qian xiang dui ni shuo wo yuan yi
Before that I’d like to tell you “I do”.

你不必問你也不必等
ni bu bi wen, ni ye bu bi deng
You don’t have to ask, neither do you need to wait

這一刻就值得愛到永恆
zhe yi ke, jiu zhi de ai dao yong heng
Just this moment, is worth loving till eternity.

我該如何讓你明白我愛你
wo gai ru he rang ni ming bai wo ai ni?
How can I let you understand that I love you?

在那之後你點頭說我願意
zai na zhi hou ni dian tou shuo wo yuan yi
After that you nod and say “I do”.

想照顧你想守護著你
xiang zhao gu ni, xiang shou hu zhe ni
want to take care of you and protect you

這一刻就想把你抱緊
zhe yi ke, jiu xiang ba ni bao jin
At this moment, [I] just want to hold you tightly.

[I]-bridge-

雖然永遠太不可能少了你的完整
sui ran yong yuan tai bu ke neng, shao le ni de wan zheng
Although ‘forever’ doesn’t seem possible without you,
兩個對的人奇蹟就能發生
liang ge dui de ren qi ji jiu hui fa sheng~
A miracle will happen upon two right people.

[I]*chorus*

不用等你開口先說我愛你
bu yong deng ni kai kou xian shuo wo ai ni
There’s no need to wait for you to say “I love you” first

在那之前想對你說我願意
zai na zhi qian xiang dui ni shuo wo yuan yi
Before that I’d like to tell you “I do”.

你不必問你也不必等
ni bu bi wen, ni ye bu bi deng
You don’t have to ask, neither do you need to wait

這一刻就值得愛到永恆
zhe yi ke, jiu zhi de ai dao yong heng
Just this moment, is worth loving till eternity.

我該如何讓你明白我愛你
wo gai ru he rang ni ming bai wo ai ni?
How can I let you understand that I love you?

在那之後你點頭說我願意
zai na zhi hou ni dian tou shuo wo yuan yi
After that you nod and say “I do”.

想照顧你想守護著你
xiang zhao gu ni, xiang shou hu zhe ni
[I] want to take care of you and protect you

這一刻就想把你抱緊
zhe yi ke, jiu xiang ba ni bao jin
At this moment, [I] just want to hold you tightly.

這一刻… 就想把你抱緊
zhe yi ke, jiu xiang ba ni bao jin
At this moment… [I] just want to hold you tightly.

regards, mauren

PS: You came into my dream again, man.

說好的幸福呢

2010-08-10T23:04:00.000-07:00

你的繪畫凌亂著
ni de hui hua ling luan zhe
在這個時刻
zai zhe ge shi ke
我想起喷泉旁的白鴿
wo xiang qi pen quan pang de bai ge
甜蜜散落了
tian mi san luo le
繼續莫名的拉扯
ji xu mo ming de la che
我還愛你呢
wo hai ai ni ne
而你斷斷續續唱著歌
er ni duan duan xu xu chang zhe ge
假裝沒事了
jia zhuang mei shi le

時間過了走了
shi jian guo le zou le
愛情面臨選擇
ai qing mian lin xuan ze
你冷了倦了我哭了
ni leng le juan le wo ku le
一開始都不快樂
yi kai shi dou bu kuai le
你用卡片紙寫著
ni yong ka pian zhi xie zhe
有些愛隻給到這真的痛了
you xie ai zhe gei dao zhe zhen de tong le

Reff:
怎麼了你累了說好的幸福呢
zen me le ni lei le shuo hao de xing fu ne
我懂了不說了愛淡了夢遠了
wo dong le bu shuo le ai dan le meng yuan le
開心與不開心依稀數著你在不舍
kai xin yu bu kai xin yi xi shu zhe ni zai bu she
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻
na xie ai guo de gan jue dou tai shen ke
我都還記得
wo dou hai ji de

你不懂了說好的幸福呢
ni bu dong le shuo hao de xing fu ne
我錯了淚干了放手了后悔了
wo cuo le lei gan le fang shou le hou hui le
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
zhi shi hui yi de yin yue he hai xuan zhuan zhe
要怎麼停呢
yao zen me ting ne

你的繪畫凌亂著
ni de hui hua ling luan zhe
在這個時刻
zai zhe ge shi ke
我像氣氛純白的白鴿
wo xiang qi fen chun bai de bai ge
甜蜜散落了
tian mi san luo le
繼續莫名的拉扯
ji xu mo ming de la che
我還愛你呢
wo hai ai ni ne
而你斷斷續續唱著歌
er ni duan duan xu xu chang zhe ge
假裝沒事了
jia zhuang mei shi le

時間過了走了
shi jian guo le zou le
愛情面臨選擇
ai qing mian lin xuan ze
你冷了倦了我哭了
ni leng le juan le wo ku le
一開始都不快樂
yi kai shi dou bu kuai le
你用卡片紙寫著
ni yong ka pian zhi xie zhe
有些愛隻給到這真的痛了
you xie ai zhi gei dao zhe zhen de tong le

怎麼了你累了說好的幸福呢
zen me le ni lei le shuo hao de xing fu ne
我懂了不說了愛淡了夢遠了
wo dong le bu shuo le ai dan le meng yuan le
開心與不開心依稀數著你在不舍
kai xin yu bu kai xin yi xi shu zhe ni zai bu she
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻
na xie ai guo de gan jue dou tai shen ke
我都還記得
wo dou hai ji de

你不懂了說好的幸福呢
ni bu dong le shuo hao de xing fu ne
我錯了淚干了放手了后悔了
wo cuo le lei gan le fang shou le hou hui le
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
zhi shi hui yi de yin yue he hai xuan zhuan zhe
要怎麼停呢
yao zen me ting ne

怎麼了你累了
zen me le ni lei le
說好的幸福呢
shuo hao de xing fu ne
我懂了不說了
wo dong le bu shuo le
愛淡了夢遠了
ai dan le meng yuan le
我都還記得
wo dou hai ji de

你不懂了說好的幸福呢
ni bu dong le shuo hao de xing fu ne
我錯了淚干了放手了后悔了
wo cuo le lei gan le fang shou le hou hui le
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
zhi shi hui yi de yin yue he hai xuan zhuan zhe
要怎麼停呢
yao zen me ting ne

regards, mauren

PS: Leave me if you never have me in your mind, never give me any hope.

BEST FRIEND

2010-08-09T20:42:00.000-07:00

Hello, again fellas! I recently listen to ALAN LUO - BEST FRIEND (好朋友). Suddenly something pass through my mind and I had you there, I mean we are just in the same condition. After everything done, we are still a ~~BEST FRIEND~~. I wish it won't be like that forever, but I had no choice.

Anw, fellas, let's sing it together LOL XD

像两首节拍不同的歌
却又同时被爱情合奏
旋律勉强着
愉快不能够假装快乐
你心中有宽阔的天空
但空气好稀薄
曾经以为等待会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我
你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞
如果爱情是五线谱
我只希望用全音符
吟唱出爱上你
那完整的幸福
当你的心没有耳朵
即使我为你唱这歌
你也只看见我哭了
你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞
曾经以为等待会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我
你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞
你说我是你最好的朋友
却不应该再拥抱着
你退缩你冷漠
于是我放开双手
不在乎我的心
会永远更寂寞
呜。。。
Oooh….

Akin to two songs with different rhythms,
but at the same time being meld together by love -
The melody is forced.
Contentment is no substitute for happiness.
Your heart is as vast as the boundless sky,
But the air is too thin to breathe.
I used to think that waiting would change things,
That you would eventually belong to me.
But in the end, time proved that -
You only liked me as a friend.
You said that I’m more like your best friend,
And we accidentally hugged together.
You apologised, you were sad,
Hence I brought a smile to your face.
Who cares if my heart is lonely?
If love is a staff [chinese musical instrument],
I only hope to use the full range of musical notes,
To sing that I have fallen in love with your,
Happiness that is so complete.
Regard your heart as being without ears,
For even if I sang this song for you,
You would only see me crying.
You said that I’m more like your best friend,
And we accidentally hugged together.
You apologised, you were sad,
Hence I brought a smile to your face.
Who cares if my heart is lonely?
I used to think that waiting would change things,
That you would eventually belong to me.
But in the end, time proved that -
You only liked me as a friend.
You said that I’m more like your best friend,
And we accidentally hugged together.
You apologised, you were sad,
Hence I brought a smile to your face.
Who cares if my heart is lonely?
You said that I’m your best friend,
But we shouldn’t hug anymore.
You withdrew, you grew colder,
Hence I withdrew my embrace.
Without concern that my heart,
Would be even lonelier forever.
Oooh….

xiang liang shou jie pai bu tong de ge
que you tong shi bei ai qing he zou
xuan lv mian qiang zhe
yu kuai bu neng gou jia zhuang kuai le
ni xin zhong you kuan kuo de tian kong
dan kong qi hao xi bo
ceng jing yi wei deng dai hui gai bian shen me
ni zong hui shu yu wo
dan shi zui hou shi jian zheng ming le
ni zhi xi huan wo
ni shuo wo bi jiao xiang ni de hao peng you
zhi shi bu xiao xin yong bao zhe
ni dao qian ni nan gup
yu shi wo gei ni xiao rong
shui zai hu wo de xin hai hui bu hui ji mo
ru guo ai qing shi wu xian pu
wo zhi xi wang yong quan yin fu3
yin chang chu ai shang ni
na wan zheng de xing fu
dang ni de xin mei you er duo
ji shi wo wei ni chang zhe ge
ni ye zhi kan jian wo ku le
ni shuo wo bi jiao xiang ni de hao peng you
zhi shi bu xiao xin yong bao zhe
ni dao qian ni nan gup
yu shi wo gei ni xiao rong
shui zai hu wo de xin hai hui bu hui ji mo
ceng jing yi wei deng dai hui gai bian shen me
ni zong hui shu yu wo
dan shi zui hou shi jian zheng ming le
ni zhi xi huan wo
ni shuo wo bi jiao xiang ni de hao peng you
zhi shi bu xiao xin yong bao zhe
ni dao qian ni nan gup
yu shi wo gei ni xiao rong
shui zai hu wo de xin hai hui bu hui ji mo
ni shuo wo shi ni zui hao de peng you
que bu ying gai zai yong bao zhe
ni tui suo ni leng mo
yu shi wo fang kai shuang shou
bu zai hu wo de xin
hui yong yuan geng ji mo
wu…
Oooh….

regards, mauren

PS: I against my personal integrity.. I have fallen into you so deeply.

PRINCE CHARMING

2010-08-08T21:57:00.000-07:00

hello, dream. Just end up with Yiruma's songs. someone recommended it to me, all of them were really great. FYI, I envy them who could play pinao well and I don't. Actually if I could play well maybe design not my first priority anymore. yah, God plans everything. Doesn't He?

Listening to Yiruma's make me feel like I'm the princess who's waiting for those princes playing with their pianos and bring me a bouquet of white roses. Damn, I want them so much. anw, I really wait for my prince charming comes with his white horse. I thought that almost ever girls want this so much right? HAHAHA

Guys, I would like to present SOMETIMES WHEN WE TOUCH. this song is the one which I recently listening to. It's an old song but I LOVE IT.

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

regards, mauren

PS: The moon tells me that you are the one who I'm waiting for this long

FLY

2010-08-07T06:05:00.000-07:00

THANKS GOD IT IS WEEKEND!

After a week I didn't breathed those fresh AIR... a ton of works, a ton of test, a ton of problems and a single you.. HAHAHAHAHA.

My days passed so so so so damn tired. school, tuition, homework, test, sleep were my daily foods. I ate them every second.

Anw, I would like to tell you all about today. I went to school and woke up lso so early.. 6.10 for me is too early, guys! My eyes always can't open widely, you know, it's an illness. so, back to our topic, i went to school like usual, starts the lessons. I punished by civic teacher, I was yawning and gassp! I gotcha catch! HAHAHA

ok, well well done, the clock stop at 12.10 and we got home! I rushed home, I ate superb quickly and I went to school again for a Photography class. guess, I pass it!!

yea, yea, forced to off. night

regards, mauren

#NOWPLAYING

2010-08-02T01:36:00.000-07:00

天涼了　雨下了　妳走了

Tian liang le, yu xia le, ni zou le

The sky has turned cold, the rain has fallen, and you have gone

清楚了　我愛的　遺失了

Qing chu le, wo ai de, yi shi le

It’s clear now, the one I love has been lost

落葉飄在湖面上睡著了

Luo ye piao zai hu mian shang shui zhao le

The fallen leaves have floated onto the surface of the lake and fallen asleep

想要放　放不掉　淚在飄

Xiang yao fang, fang bu diao, lei zai piao

Wanting to let go, but can’t let go, tears are flowing

妳看看　妳看　看不到

Ni kan kan, ni kan, kan bu dao

Take a look, look, but you can’t see

我假裝過去不重要　卻發現自己辦不到

Wo jia zhuang guo qu bu zhong yao, que fa xian zi ji ban bu dao

I pretend that the past isn’t important, but realized I can’t do it

說了再見　才發現再也見不到

Shuo le zai jian cai fa xian zai ye jian bu dao

After saying goodbye, I realize I can never see you again

我不能就這樣失去妳的微笑

Wo bu neng jiu zhe yang shi qu ni de wei xiao

I cannot just lose your smile like this

口紅待在桌角　而妳我找不到

Kou hong dai zai zhuo jiao er ni wo zhao bu dao

The lipstick is left on the corner of the table, but both you and I cannot find it

若角色對調妳說好不好

Ruo jiao se dui diao ni shuo hao bu hao

What do you feel about swapping roles?

說了再見　才發現再也見不到

Shuo le zai jian cai fa xian zai ye jian bu dao

After saying goodbye, I realize I can never see you again

能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉

Neng bu neng jiu zhe yang ren zhe tong lei bu diao

Can I just hold in my tears like this and not let them fall

說好陪我到老　永恆往那裡找

Shuo hao pei wo dao lao, yong heng wang na li zhao

You promised to be with me till we’re old, finding eternity there

再次擁抱一分一秒都好

Zai ci yong bao yi fen yi miao dou hao

Even embracing for a minute, a second, again is good

[Back to start]

妳的笑　妳的好　腦海裡　一直在繞

Ni de xiao ni de hao nao hai li yi zhi zai rao

Your smile, your goodness, revolves endlessly in my mind

我的手　忘不了　妳手的溫度

Wo de shou wang bu liao ni shou de wen du

My hand cannot forget the warmth of your hand

心碎了一地　撿不回從前的心跳　身陷過去我無力逃跑

Xin sui le yi di jian bu hui cong qian de xin tiao, shen xian guo qu wo wu li tao pao

My heart has shattered all over, can’t find back the heartbeat from the past, stuck in the past I am powerless to escape

說再見　才發現再也見不到

Shuo zai jian cai fa xian zai ye jian bu dao

Said goodbye, then I realize I can never see you again

能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉

Neng bu neng jiu zhe yang ren zhe tong lei bu diao

Can I just hold in my tears like this and not let them fall

說好陪我到老　永恆往那裡找

Shuo hao pei wo dao lao, yong heng wang na li zhao

You promised to be with me till we’re old, finding eternity there

再次擁抱一分一秒都好

Zai ci yong bao yi fen yi miao dou hao

Even embracing for a minute, a second, again is good

HECTIC

2010-07-30T04:10:00.000-07:00

SUPERB HECTIC
I WISH TO HAVE ANOTHER LONG HOLIDAYS

REGARDS, MAUREN

ps: iloveyoumoreandmore:)

ALERT

2010-07-22T05:44:00.000-07:00

We just start the Senior High for two weeks and bad news.. THE MONTHLY TEST STILL 3 WEEKS TO GO! How about others? Are you guys mentally plus physically ready?

I'M NOT

regards, mauren

PS: Katze

My New Boyfriend

2010-07-09T23:13:00.000-07:00

WELCOMING MY NEW BOYFRIEND :D
canon eos 500D

thank you mommy for bought it :)

regards, mauren

PS: no more school daze, baby.

A Way to Remember

2010-07-03T23:08:00.000-07:00

tomorrow will be my first day wearing SHS' uniform to school. Feeling not as usual but actually I'm proud of it!

"I'm more mature when I put on it"

I miss my school and those stuffs. Just cleaned my room this morning and I found out things that I called as memory. A great memory of course.
I picked a paper on my drawer, written the first day, date and everything there. It ends on 25th June. hey, I suddenly miss him. But, I'm not regretting my option, it's quite right.
I picked an album, guess what's on it! photos with them :) when Deb and I went to Parapat, when we made some messy time in school. all there! I wish I could go to school ASAP.
They all are in my heart always :)

regards, mauren

End of JUNE

2010-06-29T21:53:00.000-07:00

my JUNE starts with happiness, ends with a bunch of Joy

regards, mauren

PS: Early July ILY :)

RANDOM

2010-06-17T21:30:00.000-07:00

BASIC INFO
Name: Mauren Tanaka
Birthday: 3rd November 1995
Age: turn to 15
Sex: F
Location: Indonesia
Nationality: Indonesian
Religion: Buddha

Favorite:
Drink: Coca Cola, Lemon Tea
Restaurant: BABURA :D
TV Show: don't really love to watch TV
City: Singapore, Paris
Food: french fries, tenderloin, fried rice and sushi
Dessert: cheesecake
Magazine: gogirl, cosmogirl, bgirl, asianstar, sister
Way to Relax: music, design and outdoor
Place: my room
Cell Phone: blackberry
Designer: hermes
Shoe: -
Date: -
Color: pink and black
Day: windy
Season: winter
Makeup: chanel
Store: as long as it sells good things
Boy: Aaron!

Movie: I love what I watched
Animal: dolphin
Form of Transportation: as long as it works *hihi*
Actor: Aaron, Richard Gere
Outfit: depends on mood

Describe your…
Wallet: white
Toothbrush: pink pepsodent
Jewelry Always : -
Pillowcase: pink
Eyes: dark brown
Room: it's pink!
Love Life: SECRET!
Piercings: ears
Wearing: bossini's black t-shirt and black shorts
Wanting: happiness, success, wealthy, health
On the iPod: Luck - Jason Mraz
Last thing you ate: chocolate
Something you’re afraid of: God

GOTTA FIND YOU

2010-06-15T23:52:00.000-07:00

Passing through Jen's blog. find out a song titled "GOTTA FIND YOU" by Jonas. A nice song with a beautiful lyrics and myself enjoy it much.

You're the voice I heard inside my head,
the reason that I'm singing

===

Trying to enjoy my days, weather seems not supporting me to have some books on bookstore. So, I need to face myself in front this PC, the only babe I have when the weather not supporting me to have some outdoor fun. Seems myself is falling for someone out there, but today this man won't be the main topic, fellas. what to do? what to do? *need to off*

regards, mauren

PS: You are piece of the missing and now I've found you :)

FREE

2010-06-14T21:47:00.001-07:00

nothing to do :|

XOXO

MOODLESS

2010-06-14T21:36:00.000-07:00

I wish I could fly even just for a minute

I wish I could hang on the sky and looking down the earth

I wish I could follow you anywhere and protect your soul everytime

Tell you I love You

My heart beating fast when you are here

Because darling I love you

regards, mauren

XOXO

100 THINGS ABOUT ME

2010-06-02T01:30:00.000-07:00

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

1. Last beverage: Mango's cake
2. Last phone call : Daddy
3. Last text message: Felix TC
4. Last song you listened to: Complicated
5. Last time you cried: 3 days ago

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: no
7. Been cheated on: absolutely yes, I think you too right?
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: I never kissed
9. Lost someone special: yes, few days ago
10. Been depressed: ever
11. Been drunk and threw up: never

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. black
13. pink
14. denim blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

15. Made a new friend: yes! I meet new people ever day is the main reason.
16. Fallen out of love: definitely yes
17. Laughed until you cried: ever, once.
18. Met someone who changed you: yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: I always have them :)
20. Found out someone was talking about you: I don't think so?
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: NO
22. How many people on your friends list do you know: I add them because I know them
23. How many kids do you want?: never think about it yet
24. Do you have any pets: two! they are CUTE!
25. Do you want to change your name: a big big NO. I love my name :D
26. What did you do for your last birthday: blast and bless *always*
27. What time did you wake up today: 7.30 with an alarm's help
28. What were you doing at midnight: still tweeting with a panda's eyes. ho-oh
29. Name something you can't wait for: A NEW PART TIME JOB
30. Last time you saw your Mother: She's beside

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my weight
32. eyes color: dark brown
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: is Thomas counted as TOM?
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: him
35. Most visited webpage: facebook, twitter and blog!
36. Whats your real name: MAUREN TANAKA
37. Nicknames: mollen *I have some others too*
38. Relationship Status: single prefect
39. Zodiac sign: Scorpion
40. Male or female?: female
41. Primary school: Sutomo1
42. Secondary school: sutomo1
43. High school/college/university?: sutomo1 and I wish my college is LASALLE
44. Hair color: black
45. Long or short: short

46. Height: 163
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: yes
48: What do you like about yourself?: almost my everything
49. Piercings: nope
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS:

52. First surgery: never had any
53. First piercing: never
54. First best friend: Debbie
55. First sport you joined: basketball
56. First vacation: Singapore
58. First pair of trainers: never

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating: no
60. Drinking:no
61. I'm about to: click reply on my phone
62. Listening to: no
63. Waiting for: a call from my uncle

YOUR FUTURE
64. Want kids?: no yet think of it
65. Get Married?: not really
66. Career?: yes!

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses : both
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: arms?
73. Sensitive or loud: loud! rock
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a strange : no!
77. Drank hard liquor: no!
78. Lost glasses/contacts: no
79. Sex on first date: no!
80. Broken someone's heart: I guess
83. Turned someone down: maybe
84. Cried when someone died: who's the person?
85. Fallen for a friend?: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: I'm such an optimist
87. Miracles: sometimes
88. Love at first sight : never, but become a fan of first sight
89. Heaven: yesssss
90. Santa Claus: when I was toddler, but now a huge NO
91. Kiss on the first date: no!
92. Angels: maybe

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: never
95. Did you sing today?: yes. I sing almost every hours :D
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: YES YES YEEESSSS
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? : when I was on grade 5
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it: 1st of January
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yes, but I really do.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: YES IF YOU TRUST ME.

SPECIAL

2010-06-02T00:58:00.000-07:00

June really starts so amazing especially on today. I went to my first 2D class in the morning and the students all is above 40 except me :| *crasp* I wish I could pass the class smoothly

The great point of today is I WILL GET A PART-TIME WORK ASAP! cheers babeh! I love today so much!! HAHAHAHHA

PS: happy birthday grandma, wish you a longevity, prosperity and healthy for ever :)

regards, mauren

HELLO, JUNE

2010-05-31T22:14:00.000-07:00

It's June first. Let's start this month with a big GREAT SMILE. haha. Having some chattering in front my lappy via msn with my dear sugar (jennessia, red.) HAHA. So thankful and feel great with her comment about my mom' website. She told me that LASALLE waiting for me. Yeah, I wish for it too. I wish I could attend LASALLE when I graduated from SHS. God Bless Me... AMEEEENNNN!!

anw, here's my June's wish:

- I will slimmer

- I will thinner

- People will be blessed by God

- health and wealth

- DSLR

regards, mauren

GREAT DAY

2010-05-31T03:47:00.000-07:00

just finished some touch on my mom's website :) feeling so GREAT till I speechless and don't know how to describe this happiness. My work hard for months finally have a GREAT result. HAHA
one word I would love to yell on this moment: EUREKA
:) :) :)

feel free to visit : http://thegift4u.com

PS: I'm not crying for farewell but I'm regretting for a meet

L - O - V - E

2010-05-29T22:01:00.000-07:00

The hunger for love is much more difficult to remove than the hunger for bread

-MOTHER TERESA-

Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love
-ALBERT EINSTEIN-

regards,
mauren

USELESS

2010-05-29T01:14:00.000-07:00

I'm starring on my phone contact to wait someone's call or text but yeah.. It will never happens.

Myself being so down these days and tears can't stop flows in my eyes. Keeping the sorrow is not a truth way to do but I have no choice on facing facts. Reality still so Sour and Bitter to follows. Myself is dreaming for a sweet things.

Now, I just look at the mirror and find out how ugly do my face is. I look older after crying and my face looks so bitter. Sorrow keep inside. I do happy when I face people but people don't know what's going on my right way.

peek-a-boo
need to sign out from here
need to continue day dream *yaaah*

regards,
mauren

UNPERFECT

2010-05-21T01:26:00.000-07:00

Because of trying to kill the time, I waste my days just sit in front of my PC, browsing, chatting and others you can do with a unit of PC. Today, I'm extremely hate my internet connection :s It's running very slow and I SWEAR THAT SNAIL WILL WIN IF THEY COMPETE AT MARATHON'S COMPETITION!! I don't know what to do with this extra-slow-connection so I just having myself blog walking. I went to one of my ex-teacher's blog (goethe.red).

As I read his post which titled "tulus" suddenly I was touched with its story too. It tells about an elderly grandmother sat under the traffic lamp and yes.. she's a beggar. So, by that time too, A JHS' student stopped his bicycle beside the road and gave the grandmother some money from his pocket.

The point of his blog's post is this world still have kind-hearted men that would like to share them with others who are really in need.

regrads,
mauren

PS: I have something to tell them, but I think for times and my soul still decided to not telling them.

The HOLIDAYS boredom

2010-05-13T00:56:00.000-07:00

yes, guys, I'm holiday-ing. Sometimes, I appreciate to have this long long holidays but somehow I still feeling not happy with it. Holidays without vacation. Suddenly when I sit in front of my PC and have a chat with one of my classmate, I remember my school-days plus my class. I miss Millefeuille and its Crazy citizens which I mean my classmates. ahahahha. I miss my times having punishment from teacher. oh.. It's really JHS' Nostalgia.

There's nothing to do here, anw I wish to tell you about my friends and why the reason I miss them: let scroll..
I especially miss my two besties who always accompanied my days during school. Debbie and Sanny ahahha, yes I especially miss them two. I miss Candy Halim with her act-cute-but-not-cute act ahahahha. I miss Albert mr.Squido with his messy acts ahahhaa. The point is.. I MISS YOU GUYS SO FULL!

ok, stop here. I dont know what to tell you anymore.

PS: Suddenly a bbm from Candy Halim ruined my mood. for the truth, she's absolutely TALKATIVE!!! hell ==

regards,
mauren

hello, there.

2010-04-08T08:10:00.000-07:00

hello, fellas! it must be some months after my last post. My last post is about the CNY's eve. Now, it is some weeks before my three-month-holiday. Yeah, tons of tests are waiting for me this Monday. I wish to escape from this own life. Pressure is my main reason. School gives me a big pressure, family too. Sometimes I hopes to skip all the days. Skip my dreams ad so on. Life must not fun these days, but still must go on.

I found a brochure about a design's school. I'll go to fetch the school after tests. I damn in love with it! Guys, wish me luck! haha.

um.. sorry for today. I'm using a lappy and I'm not really know how to work with it. I'm lo-tech... haha. No bonus for today post, guys :)

regards, mauren.

CNY's eve always funtastic :)

2010-02-13T05:48:00.000-08:00

hello, nighto! I am writing you with a bunch of joy! haha :) it's a CNY's eve which all the chinese families who celebrate CNY gather with their lovely family members. me too. My family and I gather together and have a nice dinner. special dinner I guess, which we can feel the JOY on ordinary days. I feel it just so-so, but I feel special when we laugh together, chattering and so on. We always busy and did not really bother each other in ordinary, we are too busy with our daily. tonigt, we share everything :) can't wait till tomorrow :) a lot of red pockets. haha! it will be fun. we are going to gather with relatives tomorrow. will be so fun fun fun and fun! actually it is valentine tomorrow. but it not really special because it falls together with CNY. family is important than lover, isn't it? yes is it. I don't really celebrate my valentine too. first, I haven't get my mr. right. second, it falls together with CNY. no chocolates or a bouquet of roses. it will pass without any special. need to go, bloggie! a lot of texts and email waiting for me to reply. my aunts, uncles, cousins, teachers and overseas friends. bubye :) here my bonuses:

WISH ALL OF YOU A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

no LAUGH for your SILLY JOKES

2010-02-10T06:34:00.000-08:00

hey! my lovely country (Medan) these days always blackout! today, my house already blackout for 3hours. imagine 3hours trapped inside the microwave! Dark plus hot. I wish that I was born in North Pole befriend Polar bears, Penguins and so on their friends. but it is just my imagination, perfect imagination can be.

few days before valentine. nothing for these year. nothing special because it is also the first day of CNY, ambitious with red pockets not really ambitious with chocolates or roses.

no bonus for today
I'm a sleepy dorky now. gonna off for the rest.

A Smile from You is The Best :)

2010-01-23T01:25:00.000-08:00

I think it been a month from my last post right, bloggie? sorry a lot. I'm lazy and I admit. A tons of homework, a dozen of tests and a lot of problems. they are enough for me :(
What day is it? 23rd January. We, I mean Equinox's students, went to Equinox for celebrating Adong-ko a.k.a Ayus birthday. We gave him surprise. A not-really-shocking surprise but we enjoy it. A guitar for him and a circle blackforest cake for him too. He looked happy and we love it.
"sir, wish you a happy birthday and wish you all the best. gambatte. We love you!"

okay. let's back forward to 20th Jan. my uncle's wedding. A vintage wedding and I so so so love his house especially his Room. I thought that he can beat up the 7-star hotel. Guess, At night when his Wedding's party I saw the one I thought that is impossible to met him again. The second Jimmy Lin, I went in the Ballroom 1 minute before he finished singing. I captured him, but not his face. I missed his face :( so pity.

here the bonuses for all of you, reado:
(not included his face, I forgot my USB cable)

bye, fellows

New Costume for You, dear

2010-01-07T00:52:00.000-08:00

hey, bloggie :)
do you love your new costume? I feel it is more mature than before. so classy. hhe :)
but I need to find for you the other, because I feel the background is messy. how do you think??

Goodbye 2009

2009-12-31T07:29:00.000-08:00

blog, remember last year. I used to be in China when it is Old n New. I was attending a study tour program. I used to united with them, we sat on the roof chattering and watched fireworks. oh.. how much I miss that time.

I study non-stop for this holidays, I want to improve my english.

ugh.. don;t know what to say.

just wish all of you:

A HAPPY NEW YEAR

Back from the ruin

2009-12-21T23:53:00.000-08:00

I am getting fatter and fatter, till my momma and grandma start shouting me when I yelled for something to eat. Ya, it's going to be The fattest if I still can't stop my mouth. hell, I don't know why I was borned with a fatty body. but sure, you need to cherish what God give to you right? :/ It's not my fault to be fat and it's not my fault too if I can't getting slimmer that usual. It is nobody fault. But nowadays they said that SLIM is PRETTY. sigh.. just feel desperato. ;(

Momma forces me to Diet as I need to workhard for not eating so much. hell, I wish to have a nice body like them too.

another hell yell, Mozzilla Firefox, which Internet browser I use the mopst is broken. hell, now I'm using IE and it's bad quality for sure.

bye

The HELL Day

2009-12-15T20:56:00.000-08:00

Really stunted there when the test paper was passed to me. why not, the questions all were just like hell. I wasn't understand everything there. hell biology! I just can do 20 from 45 questions, that means I'm failed.

yah. the year-end test is already come, it is so hell so boring. PLN just like shit. when I was just want to start studying suddenly my house black out till midnight. how can I study with this situation and now it's my neighbor's turn, her house just black out and she turned on the Generator, it makes a lot of "zzz zzz" sound and it is annoying. again, I can't consentrate with my book.

hell. I'm in a big big sleepy trouble. seeya.

Don't Ever Judge the Book by the Cover

2009-12-11T04:46:00.000-08:00

daddy and mommy complained about my face, they said that my face looks pale and they forced me to eat suplement for stamina because of my health.
yah.. maybe I am too tired, no, it is not too tired. I thought it just for these days, my health is worst. I have no voice and I often migraine.

arrrrggghhh.
suddenly it is end of the year.

What I Want For Today

2009-12-09T01:03:00.000-08:00

wishlist:
really need an entertainment such like this things below :D

this shirt I design by myself :DD (not really design lah)

new pink laptop

pen tablet

and the last...

treng treng...

new boyfriend!

bye bye

The Little Sorrow

2009-12-03T04:57:00.000-08:00

haisss, bloggie.
don't know why, but i feel everything will change soon.
maybe it been changed deliberately or it changed by itself.
if I can back forward to memories, I liked to change everything again!

yesterday started sleeping at 12 o'clock, talked too much with cousins and wake up at 6 this early morning.
my face still very silly and my eyes still blur.
I went to toilet and took a bathe, my daily work I thought.
ate some leftover breakfast because mom not feeling well and did not wake up to cook.
went to school like usually, but one thing, i forgot to take homework, a presentation homework.
so I promise my classmates that i would went home to grab it.

after school then tuition.
not bad, happy time and laughed at tuition fixed my feeling a little.

got a phone from tuition class, my class will start this saturday 1.
yaaa.. tuition class.
family always advices me to do my best, don't force my best.
but if I don't learn and don't do anything how can I show up my best.

okay, need to off in the second.
no photos or anything.
need to work on Deb's project...
bye